Doughnut Dreaming

Happy Monday! I've had an unusually busy start to the week this week, but I wanted to pop on and mention a song I've been really loving. Hundred Thousand Hearts by Holy Child I have been following the progression of this band since college.  I actually occasionally hung out with the lead singers sister from time to time.... Well we ran in the same circle of friends.  She must have mentioned the band, or posted it somewhere and I took a listen! Turns out their music is quite quirky, but in the best way! The lead singer, Liz Nistico has a unique voice that fits well with their electric pop song. And the chorus is always something catchy that keeps you coming back.  This particular song has a simple start, that picks up at that chorus. One thing I always love is how a song starts out in the most simple way and the gradually picks up through the song, until eventually you have this full band, choir, and additional instruments. The build up of a song like that alw...

Hey blogging world, it's been a while! A lot has changed since the last time I made a post. I feel as though it's time to give this blogging thing a real try.  Only I'm going to have to change things up a bit.  Looking back at my previous posts I've come to realize a lot of what was relevant to me then, no long applies. My life has changed completely in the couple of years that have passed and I feel I would be much better suited as lifestyle blogger now. At one time, all my previous posts were very important to me and could still be important in helping someone else's struggles.  So for that reason I am going to leave them on the blog.  I believe that I had to get through that part of my life to be where I am now! Moving forward I am hoping to provide home decor hauls, fun outings with my little non traditional family, make up looks and style, music I'm really digging, and OF COURSE snacks and doughnuts. I know this is nothing new, but I find myself a...

Imagine you're floating above yourself. You can see yourself, but you can't rationalize with yourself, and you can't stop your actions. You can feel the struggle, and the pain that you are causing yourself, but nothing can stop your behavior.  You want to stop, you want to cry, and you want to take back the last 10 minutes to an hour. But you can't. All that consumes you in that moment is this anxiety and desire to eat every single delicious thing you can find until you truly hate yourself. That's what a binge is...at least for me.  Last time I posted I had mentioned I would explain a "normal" binge for me. Maybe you can identify  (to all my readers...lucky if I have one!), or maybe you aren't sure if you are experiencing the same thing, but I think its helpful to get it out in the universe.  We are never alone in our struggles.  People experience a lot of the things we do, we just tend to think we are at the only ones.  To my knowledge I do...

Hey internet, it's been a while.  Seems I blogged for the month October and only the month of October. Let me explain what happened... As you can see my posts were mainly about how I adopted iifym macro practice, and how well it was working for me. Honestly I had seen so much progress and success with this idea of eating for a while.  I thought I have finally gotten myself on a path I was happy and successful with. I thought I had finally beat the binging. Unfortunately that was not the case. In fact right when I stopped blogging is when my binging worked its way back to my life. Correlation? Yes.  How could one write positive messages and healthy eating support, when you are unhappy and can't even control your own eating?! For the months following October, I would eat and eat and eat until I felt sick.  I felt so sick sometimes I could have sworn I was going to die. Every morning I would wake up saying "yesterday was the last day."  So I would restrict al...

So since it's now fall and of course the season of pumpkin, I'm goin to share a little pumpkin recipe! I have been making pumpkin waffles and pancakes quite a bit. And I love to add sugar free pumpkin syrup (from target) to my coffee. BUT my job situation recently changed a bit leaving me poorer, but with more free time. So now some baking is to follow... Because who actually wants to use extra free time to study right?! I made some Pumpkin Cookie Butter Chocolate Chips Squares :D To start, as soon as I caught sight of Trader Joes pumpkin cookie butter I had to have it. If there is anything that I have more of a problem with than peanut butter, it's that damn cookie butter. I can't keep it in the house. Only every time I go to trader joes I feel obligated to buy it. Bad planning. Can't help what you love right? Just how do I make an entire jar fit my macros regularly!!! Thankfully the recipe used most of this beauty up. (Though there may have been some sp...

There she is, a Dunkin Donuts Pumpkin Cheesecake doughnut square :D She was a beauty, and a tasty little thing that was gone too fast. Haha sorry, getting carried away. So today I had to get my car looked at by my insurance, (thanks to some lovely human who hit my car and ran :'( while I was in, you guessed it, Dunkin Donuts last week) I also had a long day of studying ahead of me.  I decided I wanted a doughnut to help fuel my day.  I also needed to go back to the Dunkin to see if they had cameras so I could find the guy that banged up my car! No such luck.  So I got a doughnut and was on my way a little less disappointed. Now if you couldn't guess it I obviously have a love for doughnuts! I don't eat them all the time, though I wish I could.  But one of the luxuries of counting macros is that I can eat a doughnut and not feel guilty about it! I won't feel as though it has messed up my progress.  What I want to say today is actually quite the opposite! ...

Afternoon! So I'm gonna talk about something kinda big...sorta, at least for me. Today was my LAST day at my first real job.  I worked there for 7 years.  I basically grew up there! It's insane to think come next Monday I will not be getting up and going to work  in the dark at my usual place of work! I can't say I worked very hard today...or the two weeks leading up to today ...but can you really blame me!? haha They sent me off today very nicely though.  I got a lovely signed card from everyone,  balloons, a lovely bag of peanut butter goodies, and of course CAKE.  Ice cream cake to be exact. YES. It fit my macros. But only after I did some moving things around.  I like to start my day knowing what I am going to eat.  So by 2pm I had a full day of eating accounted for. What I would like to say about that is, this.  Two years ago, maybe even last year this cake would have haunted me.  I would have dreaded every minute leadin...